I realise I haven’t posted for some time.
The last few years is the worst my CFS and health has been for a long time. And it’s not really getting any better at the moment.
If anything it has possibly been even worse since maybe February-ish.
But to be honest it is hard for me to tell anything for sure.
The “brain fog” symptoms (ie, cognitive dysfunction) are quite possibly the worst they have ever been.
Plus the increased sensitivity to any stimulation (sound, TV, movement, brightness, reading, using computer, etc etc).
And all of this has been very severely disabling.
All I want is proper rest, head and brain rest more than anything. If that makes sense ?
But I remain hopeful, as I have some reasonable days. Even if they are quite few.
I guess I’m just posting this out of frustration, in the hope that I’ll feel better (emotionally that is) once I’ve done it.
And to keep my Blog going – as I  have been neglecting it.
Well, I have been managing almost nothing much of the time.
The smallest thing takes so much out of me, and the time needed to recover from it seems to get longer and longer each time.
So bloody difficult . . . .
But everyone with CFS and ME will know what I mean.
I haven’t managed to get outside the house for nearly 4 weeks now. The Easter Weekend has just passed in the blink of an eye.
Husband had the full 4 days off. I was glad he did – he was well overdue a break and some relaxation. I just wish I had been able to enjoy more of it with him, but have been in bed throughout most of the time.
The thing that has probably disappointed me most was not being able to get out into the garden. Ok, it is a mess out there, no doubt to our neighbours’ horror.  But I would love to have been able to sit outside and feel the fresh air and sunlight on my face.
I love the sun.
However we did enjoy some tasty   Chinese food on Sunday night and a couple of glasses of wine. And despite my ability to tolerate TV being very low just now – we did manage to watch a good film.
So it wasn’t all bad.

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