Today Sunday – I don’t know whether to cry because of these headaches. Or scream with frustration.
I haven‘t been outside in the fresh air for more than 3 weeks now. Not even for 5 minutes, or even one minute.
Today is a lovely bright sunny afternoon. I can see lots of golden autumn leaves lying on the street below. A warm coating. And trees with different shades of green.
It’s as if nature is saying to me – Anne, please come outside and breathe me in.
And today my physical energy didn’t seem too bad. I was up, washed, dressed and have eaten. Just a banana and toast and tea. And water.
And I was determined to get out.
I so badly wanted to get out.
But these headaches . . .
I’ve been complaining of them for a very long time I know.
But I haven’t successfully managed to get any medical help. In fact some of my attempts to seek help have just resulted in them being made worse. And my other symptoms escalating. (Have written about this before of course.)
The thing that should eventually help lessen the headaches a bit – is to just lie down. On the bed, or in bed.
And may have to put on eye patches. Or just pull down the blinds.
And have no stimulation at all.
Doing this (lying down) tends to ease various symptoms a bit – not just the headaches. eg, neck pain, being out of breath, chest tightness, etc.
To mention just a few.
But I spend so much time lying down.
So much of my life.
As its never just 10 mins, or 30 mins that’s needed. More like a few hours. Sometimes three, sometimes six.
Sometimes a whole day.
Last night I had headaches that lasted for 5 hours – after taking painkillers.
But I was able to stay up during all of this time. Even though I couldn’t actually do very much.
Well – I watched Day Of The Jackal. The whole film. One of my favourite films.
And I was quite pleased with that.
But this is worse today.
And I just needed to have a moan.
Today I had the physical energy to be able to go down the stairs and get out.
But simply any movement at all is making the headaches worse. And this has stopped me. And changing from looking at a close-up item to something further away makes it worse too. (This is a very recent change or difficulty.)
Yes, I do probably need new glasses now too.
That’s another challenge to think about . . .
A friend told me that Specsavers at Morrisons (the supermarkets) actually do home eye tests.
So I have emailed them to ask if I can have one.
Will see how that goes.
Your Jaw Never Gets Tired 