My Work Is Killing Me
Couldn’t get back to sleep – the racing brain again.
Thoughts rushing around at 100 miles an hour, lots of different work ideas, many contradicting each other, cannot decide what best to do over 2 o/s issues from yesterday, lots of other o/s problems rushing into my mind that need dealt with too, all important things (as I deal with Property – everything has a financial effect or knock-on and a financial penalty if ignored too long).
But I cannot focus on anything properly.
My concentration is shot to pieces – and its only 6.30 am. Not even out of bed yet or started my day.
And have the bad headache back again.
It started chewing away at my head as soon as my thoughts turned to my work. But don’t want to take painkillers just yet. (only 4 left in the house – but that’s a separate problem !)
So decided to type a post for my blog instead.
As my hope is that getting this out (of my head) will help release stress therefore help my damned CFS symptoms . . .
Don’t want to go into too much detail here about yesterday’s property problems – as it will be on the boring side. (And I plan to start another blog about this.)
But the No 1 item in my head is the unhelpfulness of the banks.
In particular a bank I spoke to on the phone last night for around 30 mins. I mean we all know it’s the credit crunch – but honest to god – they could not be more difficult or awkward to deal with if they tried.
I was left feeling that I wished I hadn’t bothered as it turned out to be such a waste of my time and my energy. Both as valuable to me.
Still – I should be grateful that at least it wasn’t India.
I am sure this is the No 1 reason for so many small business going to the wall.
Your Jaw Never Gets Tired 
Sep 05, 2012 @ 08:21:12
My work also killing me.I’m beginning to wonder if reduction in hours would help me.its something I will look into today! Working is stressful enough, without the me/cfs stuff to deal with too.
Sep 09, 2012 @ 21:11:11
Oh yes – if that is an option for you, I would consider it for sure.
I personally feel that the longer you struggle on with CFS or ME the more ingrained it gets, and then harder to get rid of in the long run. (Thats just my thoughts – not a medical opinion.) So if there is anything you can do to make it easier on yourself – then you should. I hope you manage it.
Good luck.
Anne
Sep 05, 2012 @ 20:09:54
Anne – I see that you are following my Well Within blog and now see that you are struggling with Chronic Fatigue and racing mind and all that entails – I would love to help and know that I could. I see what you are going through and maybe just to say that it is time you mastered your mind rather than let it run you and pain you like this. CFS has been my speciality for years – it is multi-layered and your life sounds exhausting – which is probably part of it. If you would like my help – you only have to ask!
Sep 09, 2012 @ 21:06:28
Jane – thank you so much for this. And I will keep it in mind.
I know things have got to change – well maybe have known that for ages. Its just how to do it thats the problem ! And I know I’m in rather a negative cycle – a sort of vicious cirlce.
Over the weekend have thought of something I’m going to try – so will see how that goes. 1 step at a time I guess !
And typing this blog is already helping me too – in that it helps clear my mind of so much negative stuff.
But thank you again for reading my blog and your comments.
Hopefully speak soon.
Anne